Loving A Guy

That moment,
when they had gone,
no more comments.
We were totally alone.
I was so happy..
..to have you.
I was too skanky..
..as i tried to impress you.

I suddenly recognized,
you're a guy instead of boy.
I gasped and realized,
what if were his another toy?
The first phrase was..
denial.
The next phrase was..
the thought about if it was another trial.

These things i never thought..
..made me feel so naive.
Not knowing what i should fought,
i stayed passive.
To lost my trust,
and end the light.
To keep my lust,
and hold the sight.