I Wish I Could Get Into Your Head

This is what I just realized,

that I have to struggle so hard to be your number one.

And sometimes the struggles are just not enough.

I'm afraid,

that I'm never going to be good enough to be your number one.

You didn't really love me all these times, did you?

Say you did love me for what I am, and not just my surface.

Dear, you didn't even have to try.

You were always my number one, and still...

Which Is Which

To remain silent is gold,

yet to speak is diamond.

Yeehaw!

The Pavement

Been here for a while,

watching people pass and go.

Waiting for you.

Do you know it's cold out here?

Do you know it's cold to be alone?

Been here for a while,

and I can still feel the chill on my barefoot.

Waiting for you.

Do you know it's a painful feeling?

Do you know it hurts to be left alone?

Been here for a while,

and the raindrops fall.

Waiting for you.

I don't know how you feel.

I don't know because I can't read your mind.

Been here for a while,

feeling abandoned and lonely.

But the pavement is not so cold anymore.

I've become numb.

Hello. Good Bye.

Hello.

You viewed me, remember?

Asking for my number, remember?

And then we met, remember?

Or do I have to recall your memory all over again?

Hello.

It is easier to said, dear.

It brings a 'good-feel' curve.

Good bye.

Why saying that?

Two words plus a frown.

Good bye.

The path we have chosen.

Then I asked you to start things all over again.

You will never know what I've done to satisfy you.

But that's okay. I won't recall any memories out of your brain.

So,

I'm just stopping by to greet you "Hello"...

...before waving "Good Bye".

I'm Invisible

Will I be noticed among the crowds?
The bright blinding lights and the loud deafening noises surrounding you.
I'll be sitting here in silence,
the invisibility cloth has been worn.
I'll watch you with a wide smile,
knowing you're happily safe and sound.

Indeed it hurts when our beloved notice us not,
yet life is not always about me and him.

This time,
life's about him.

I'm Grabbing Air

In case you read this,
I miss you all the time.

And yes...
...the feeling remains.
Ask me not about what feeling,
for it is something which should not be described any longer.

Yeah. You know who you are.
I don't have to mention any names or initials, do I?

Time flies slowly.

Now I do believe when Feist said,
distance makes the heart goes weak.

It's your heart that went weak.

I still do have my wishes.
For you.
For me.
For us.
Only God knows...

Adelaide Sky - Adhitia Sofyan

I need to know what’s on your mind
These coffee cups are getting cold
Mind the people passing by
They don’t know I’ll be leaving soon

I’ll fly away tomorrow
To far away
I’ll admit a cliché
Things won’t be the same without you

I’ll be looking at my window seeing Adelaide sky
Would you be kind enough to remember
I’ll be hearing my own foot steps under Adelaide sky
Would you be kind enough to remember me

I’ll let you know what’s on my mind
I wish they’ve made you portable
Then i’ll carry you around and round
I bet you’ll look good on me

I’ll fly away tomorrow
It’s been fun
I’ll repeat the cliché
Things won’t be the same without you

I’ve been meaning to call you soon
But we’re in different times
You might not be home now
Would you take a message
I’ll try to stay awake
And fight your presence in my head

Wonders And Trembles

So this is the hum.

I spent days humming on the road,

with extra liquid drops.

So this is the chill.

I felt the crawling chill downside up,

with extra banging migraine.

Screw the bullshizz!!!

The mind is working on its own now.

It wonders and trembles.

Kinda eerie, huh?

Where's My Blueberry Cheese Cake?

I'm missing my blueberry cheese cake.

Right now I want no other cheese cake.
Neither a plain cheese cake,
nor a cheese cake with maple syrup topping.

Where's my blueberry cheese cake?
Did they stop producing blueberry jam?

I want no plain cheese cake.
I want my blueberry cheese cake.

I think I'm gonna burst myself into tears now.

Wow..Wow..Wow..

I wanna sit back, relax, and chill.
Ease all the burdens,
accompanied with a thin layer of air.
And a sip of liquor.

That would be so nice.
Indeed.

Let's go!!!

Reasons

Why would I think of someone who doesn't even think of me?
And struggled too hard for that.

Why would I put someone on my priority list while I don't even exist as somebody on the other hand?
And spent so many tears.

Do I have to grave and beg for that?
I tried. It failed.

I don't get you.
It breaks my heart.

Thoughts Of You I Can't Answer

Have spent my nights...sleepless.
Tried not to waste my time for useless questions.

I might not have the answer for whatever it is,
but please step me aside not.
For I will instantly question,
what am I then?

Have spent my days...thoughtful.
Tried not to be teary and move on.

I might be buggy sometimes,
but I mean no harm.
Now have I done something wrong?
Would somebody tell...

For I no longer know what to do.
No longer know nothing anymore.